Guilt and shame and shame and guilt
Today I smacked Emma hard on the bottom. I am feeling horrible on a number of levels.
Level number one (this is not in order of importance); our official policy is No Smacking, and I breached official policy.
Level number two; it goes against everything I believe in, tambourine-bashing full-on born again Christian that I am.
Level number three; I am shocked about just how angry I was at the time.
Level number four; I am shocked at how I didn't just act like a grown-up and rein it in.
Level number five; it obviously hurt her.
Level number six; it didn't even work.
I told her I was sorry and we had a cuddle. Then I asked her nicely if she please wouldn't be quite so naughty. But I am very remorseful and worry that I might have scarred her for life.
7 Comments:
Sweetie, ditto on nearly all counts, we're probably all going to be both sides of a whacking by the end of our lives. Good news, you learnt new stuff about yourself. (And you're still lovely). x
Don't worry. My 2 older sisters got more spankings than anyone I know. And they turned out just fine.
I've done it.
I hate that I've done it.
I can't guarantee I won't do it again.
I will try my best not to (because of all the reasons you state)
She is not scarred- but you are. Isn't that a result?
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I've done it.
I hate that I've done it.
I can't guarantee I won't do it again.
I will try my best not to (because of all the reasons you state)
She is not scarred- but you are. Isn't that a result?
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I've done it.
I hate that I've done it.
I can't guarantee I won't do it again.
I will try my best not to (because of all the reasons you state)
She is not scarred- but you are. Isn't that a result?
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Ok, so I've no kids which means my contribution is probably as discountable as those pesky spammers who seem quite determined we should all make our money in some weird way through a blog site, but anyway, I digress. In addition to the solidarity shown by your other pals, quite rightly, I want to challenge you about level number 2. Basically, I am really interested to see that you put being a born again christian on the list of reasons not to spank, as - to be frank - the born agains I know are chief amongst spankers - in essence because they justify it biblically. The rod and all that. So, whilst being fully sympathetic to how guilt-ridden you are feeling, I also want to know what the whole Christian angle that underlies level 2 is all about.
Sock it to me, AA.
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I'm with you and minks, I guess we can't be in full control all the time. But oh, the guilt. I remember well the very few occasions I was spanked as a child - it didn't scar me in any way but I remember being fully aware that I had actually done a very naughty thing to deserve it. So perhaps you have both learnt...
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